I have been reading your blog, I hope you don't mind.
Sitting here with my cat, I lock all of my insecure emotions inside him,
He transforms them into the greatest feelings of Gratitude I can reach.
Having the responsibility of another being, keeping him alive,
does he know he is keeping me alive?
I remember a time you sent us boys a letter, I think you were moving, whoever read it to me did not make it clear, you had signed it Grandma By The Whales, I thought you were going to leave us all and leave the Earth, leave everything that limits your true being and swim with the whales for eternity.
I started crying really hard. How could they have possibly comforted me? I did not know the words to explain to them the feelings I had. We have obviously been traveling the cosmos together for some time.
. . . So, how could I blame them? They didn't understand, they had this thought, that they were all older than me. The feeling of being trapped is scary, but I've let that all go, I can't blame them, they are young. I don't resent that moment, I embrace it, it is me. I love you.
. . . Have I even ever said those words to you? Please, know that you deserve them. You worked hard for them, teaching me, sharing your knowledge with me.. I didn't even ask for it, but I fully accepted all that you were, because, well, I just knew. You are my Grandmother. And a Grand Mother you are.
. . . You taught me Gratitude, you taught me true Appreciation. You taught me to see Beauty in everything. There was actually a time(1-2 years prior to the present) that I walked through all of my favourite forests alone, listening to the trees talk to me, I actually believed this had all come to me on my own, but I have kept you with me in my heart since the day I left you.
. . . My children will feel what I feel also, that is a Beauty. They will know your name, and everything you have done for me. And they will know everything that I will do for them. And they will have their own experiences, as I have had away from you, my teacher.. And their children too will know their wisdom.. I can literally see the intellectual growth that you planted in my mind, in my future, and it is a Beauty that when that flower blooms, the wind will carry Her seeds to my children.
I will not fail where I believe many of us have today. It is impossible now, for me to overlook this fact.
. . . I could call you Inspiring, but that is only 9 letters, and you deserve a library of nice words. You did not just Inspire me, you Changed me completely.
